Phantom Joystick

Starting over
with the thin limb notion
real life could be different
outside the black box
leaning a bit to the left
then right
then squirming
as a declaration
or settlement procedure
even in a sad white light
better than what came before
but not striving
other than leading by example
pain is not getting the results
knowing they were gotten good before

Starting over
again and again
flipping the switch
believing it will stop
with no foreseeable end
where things left off
again and again
predicting what is
by purposefully doing what is not
committing to that
being the hardest part
evolving in function
out of necessity in structure
knowing your parts
and deciding what you should be
only to find out
what you really are
or half of that

Starting over
writhing in pattern
swimming if the situation changes
because drowning equals failure
if one can't fix one's self
what tools are for
all these huggable concepts
flexing and spinning
knowing what you are
and believing that without question
the most dangerously unrewarding part
coming to terms
adapting for flavor
coloring the landscape
with mistakes

Starting over
is not as easy
as
Starting over
is not as easy
as
Starting over
is not that hard
once you've done it
you just have to do it again
and again
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6.2.10